You are active as a miracle worker in my life, through me. You have given me the self understanding that I required in order to incarnate as love, or at least to do so more and more.
All those 30 or so years ago I recognized your Great Help. All those years ago I recognized your Great Influence, telling me to simply commune with You, to be in relationship with You, no matter where I was, whom I might be with, no matter what was arising. You said to me to choose any condition and to Find You there. That has been my practice all these years, Finding You there, wherever there might be.
If someone could never sit still and then could do in contemplation of You, that is a miracle.
If one couldn’t watch a film with ones family then could do in relationship with you, that is a miracle.
If one couldn’t play solos in front of others then could do, while feeling Your loving regard, then that is a miracle.
If one couldn’t sit still and watch a rugby match with ones father, but could do with this secretive relationship with You, that is a miracle.
If one couldn’t walk out of the front door without feeling self conscious, but suddenly could while with You, that is a miracle.
If one found it difficult to do the most ordinary of functional jobs, without getting anxious and flustered, but suddenly could do with You, then that is nothing short of being miraculous..
If one got concerned about the slightest of mundane things and then, in relationship with You, Didn’t, then that is simply miraculous.
My spiritual relationship with You is secretive, it is unknown, it is unseen. But it’s fruits are known.
Beloved You have shown Yourself, revealed to me Your love that surpasses all internal conflicts, all dilemma, all pathetic concerns, transforming the situations that I have found myself in, a transformation that is nothing but miraculous, I am deeply heart grateful for.
My whole life of difficulties and frustrations, anxieties and dilemmas has been necessary in order to find You, and to refinding You, as an answer to my childhood prayer of wanting to be like Jesus and not simply a follower. You are the means for this body mind transformation, a transformation that is gracefully given, totally dependent on me finding You Attractive beyond all of the results of my self-contraction.
Dear Beloved you never forsake me, for it is I that forsake you.
I pray that my life circumstances will only ever be what is required for my personal Sadhana, a sadhana that can only be about Real Love. As long as I continue to be Attracted to You, and only You, beyond my separative acts, I know inherently that I am Yours and that You will bless me with those gifts that reflect such devotion.
I wish to be an advocate of this Loving, transforming and miraculous Relationship that you offer, which is really all that Adidam is about. It is a personal relationship that has a great influence on others and things. I wish to be Your instrument of incarnation. Please grant me the arms to be capable of such a heartfelt prayer.
I bow down at Your Feet, freely offering You my self.